Kawaru Wa Yo!!

First thing first, it must be like riding a roller coaster when reading my blog does it?
sometimes I writes nonsense stuff and rarely i writes something good. sorry for that.
You see, reading was once my hobby. Until I met technology that is.
now, I'm trying to make writing as my hobby. weird? I don't know~

I always been this timid-not so talkative-keep to myself kind of kid. yeah, I'm growing and changing a bit now. BIT BY BIT. Sometimes, to make me feel better, I have to put on this invisible mask of attitude. I try to have a conversation, try to make friends but deep inside, its just me alone. Always overdo it. Up to the level where I would eventually hurt their feeling unconsciously.
I just don't have enough talent to mingle around. Then I decided to change for real.

[Source]

Seriously? Its like hundreds of time where I say I would 'Change'. To be a better me. Like it or not, being a teacher needs this ability to blend in. To talk. I'm just lying to myself. I can't do it alone. =| being alone was my fear, yet I am. Does that mean I lived in fear? urm.. -Out of topic-

I know I'm not worth it to be someone's friends. I'm not a good guy. A man without talent. I don't know why I'm writing this either. To tell someone that I don't know about myself. Maybe this is just my self reflection. help~

Back to 'Change'.
What is it??

"The process of becoming different" - Wiki
as usual, you could read more of it if you want to. just follow the link.

Who haven't been through this process? Even I did. well, to became worst. ahaa..
okay........ enough. Don't have the mood to write anymore. I wonder why.. hurm~

*I am not 'mocking' myself here. needed somewhere to write.
more to come.. =p

~*MiZU*~